Smooth Passages Express

I feel like I am not enough. That despite everything I do I still can't find myself. I am lost but I know I need to be somewhere. I need to strive and be the person that I always wanted to be. I need to face the consequences of my wrong doing. I need to human up and be brave. I need to be adult... even if I'm just a child inside.

I don't usually say bad words. I was raised in a family where saying curse is prohibited and punishable. But...FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. I don't know anymore. I was trapped when all I wanted to do is fly. Fuck. It's such a bad word but how come it feels good saying it? Fuck. I'm so effed up. Mom, sorry I am cursing now. Mom, sorry I say things I shouldn't. Mom, sorry... I fucked up.